I wanna go back to the days where I knew you cared, where I didn’t feel like I was bothering you if I texted you for something. I want the days back where it wasn’t a question whether or not I’d see you, we knew we were hanging out everyday; the days where I would wake up and have texts from you already with plans for the day or the night. When every night was spent shitfaced together. When I felt like I actually had you on my side and when I felt like I could go to you with anything and everything. When I knew you wouldn’t judge me for my decisions and I knew you would be there to pick me up if I fell. I miss the days where it was so simple and so easy. I called you my best friend and you called me yours. We were inseparable and we knew every little thing about each other. If one of us was down the other would be there in five minutes, and ten minutes after that we’d be laughing our asses off forgetting why we were upset. I didn’t think things would change so much. But really nothing has. I’m still the same me, I still talk to the same boy, I still have my problems, and I still need my best friend. The only thing that’s changed is that I’m at college. I haven’t replaced you; that’s impossible. We promised each other this wouldn’t happen, but now we only talk when things are going wrong and that’s not our old friendship. I don’t like what we’ve become. I used to know everything about you and now I literally know nothing. It’s like I never knew you, any of you for that matter. I miss how it used to be and I don’t really know if I see it going back to the way it used to be.. Do I want it to? More than anything in this world, but you think I put him over you when that just isn’t true. He’s just been there for me through this hard time and I love him. That doesn’t mean you don’t have any importance to me anymore. I just want my old best friend back; the one that knew everything about me, the one I spent all my time with, the one that cared about me. Is that too much to ask? I feel like I’ve lost you for no reason at all and I hate it.
